Third Times a Charm?

I started this blog, facebook, instagram, twitter over a year ago.  At the time, I thought I was so gung-ho that there was no way I would go back to eating carbs.  I lasted a month.  It was a camping trip that did me in, with intentions of just eating carbs while camping and going back to keto immediately afterwards.  My two days of eating carbs turned into weeks, turned into months, turned into a year.  I regretted having the carbs while camping and let carbs take over my life again.  This was the second time I had lasted a month and 'fell off the wagon.'

I would often think fondly about doing keto, but convinced myself that it wasn't the time.  To me, I didn't look like I weighed around 225 pounds and wore size 18.  So, it wasn't vanity that was pushing me.  Have you ever heard about finding your why? You know, WHY you are committing to the keto WOE?  Finding my WHY was easy.  I've had high blood pressure since having my youngest daughter by emergency c-section more than 11 years ago; plus, diabetes runs in my family.  My why has been the same since first hearing about the ketogenic diet.   

I started keto again on May 20th of this year, the day after my son's 14th birthday.  This time I chose to not weigh myself before hand (a decision I now regret.)  I have my measurements from last year when I had convinced myself that I wouldn't quit, so that's helpful for documentation of my progress.  I also still use the higistation at a local store, so that keeps track of my weight, BMI, body fat, and blood pressure from when I very first used it in 2014.

I'm not really sure why this time is so different for me.  It's my third real effort.  The first time I suddenly started on New Years because my husband was doing it- no planning- just dove right in.  I kept thinking about what I was missing out on eating.  It didn't work for me.  The second time I made sure to eat everything I knew I would crave before starting, so as to not sabotage myself.  This time I planned to start on the 20th and kept it basic.  I started with dirty/lazy keto- and am still using that method.  Because I've done a keto workshop I feel like I can judge pretty well what I'm eating.

In the past I would be hard on myself and last the month in order to reward myself with a cheat day.  This time I don't have that mentality.  If I eat carbs, its okay.  It doesn't ruin everything.  I'm not thinking 'I'm having a cheat DAY-I need to eat all the carbs.'  I just get right back to it the next day.  I'm coming up to three months.  Have I eaten things I shouldn't?  Yes.  Do I let it ruin my week or month?  Nope.  It's actually a very liberating way to think about it.

I haven't set any goals, aside from getting off of my blood pressure medication.  However, last week I made it to 'onderland'- which is something that I felt would never happen.  I'm also intermittent fasting- my feed window is about seven hours.  I will write about that in the next post.

If you have questions or comments please feel free to leave them.  I will respond and help in any way I can.